What Is My Story?

Reaching into the old journal again...

4.8.2007

I've spent more time in my blog lately, or posting to myspace, or emails - that's where most of my writing is going. But I'm thrilled that I'm writing. A lot more. I'm starting to let go of the fear that what I have to say is meaningless, or - worse yet - that I'll pick up a pen and have nothing to write and I'll discover I'm empty.

I feel like I'm on the edge of something. I continually see lines converging together, and their central point is me. That I will soon be at a major crossroads. Or like it's the moment before the coin stops spinning in mid-air, the second before a hand snatches it and slaps it onto the back of the other hand. And no matter if it's heads or tails, there is an important decision about to be revealed.

Right now, I have a lot of dreams but no vision. I listened to a recorded speech online last night, given by Donald Miller, and it was something I very much needed to hear. He talked about story, its elements, how the Bible is one story after another, and how God uses it to relate to us. He also talked about our stories and how they're only interesting when we're doing something.

I need to figure out how to pursue these dreams, how to gain vision. So I can start doing something, so my story becomes worthwhile.